New President, New Hair

Ok so Obama is officially our President now. His speech really got to me, it was very impressive I think. Time to dust off!! I took 288 pictures from my tv and I will post them on Myspace in a special folder just for Obama and feel free Beidgete to steal some, LOL.

I decided since it is winter to do something different with my hair. I colored it today but now I need some low lights in it, I will do that tomorrow. I hate winter so I need something different, why not the hair right?!?!

Whatcha think? Too dark? Not for me? It is quite different, I am still not sure if I like it or not but maybe it will be better when I add some low lights!

How are you all doing? Hope all is well. I will be back later to write =)

American Idol Recap

So American Idol this year seems to have a lot of weirdo's running AZ lately. I think this year is going to be very interesting to say the least, especially when they allow a girl to come in and audition in her freaking bikini. Don't get me wrong, she was hot with a nice ass body but that is just the wrong idea and for AI to allow that was kinda freaky.

I was very stoked to see jason Castro though. He was one guy I picked from the gitgo and David Cook so to see him again was like heaven. Here are some photos I took of them off my TV, LOL... Yea I am weird I know.

His brother made it through somehow. I think he was OK... not 1/2 as good as Jason so I knowhe will be booted when the top 24 comes. This year is going to be interesting to say the least. I can't ait to see the inerviews next week, maybe they will have a guy in his briefs, WOOT!

What's Been Happening Here

There really hasn't been that much going on here besides the normal everyday things. Joe and I have been getting along so well, since New Year's. I made it a point in my life that life is too short to get mad and fight over things that should not be. I also made it a point that JOE is the ruler of the house and what he says goes (with Alyssa).

I went for my post-op visit. My incisions he says look great (uhhggg). I asked about the pains on my left side and he said that was normal since the one incision is there and he lazered under the rib cage. My Dr I am one of the worst he had ever seen with the scar tissue and adhesion's he had ever seen, especially on the bowels. I don't have any pains anymore, just sore from the surgery still. He says it takes like 6-8 weeks to feel 100% better. He told me not to lift anything that weighs more than a gallon of milk, no vacuuming, pushing or pulling anything for the next 3 weeks.... OH and no sexual intercourse! I laughed and said Joe is going to hate you for this one. My Dr even wrote Joe a note telling him all of this. Oh well, there are things we can do =)

I have decided that now that Alyssa is 12, has a cell phone, she needs to work off for her cell bill which is $40 a month. She has her room she does everyday which she always did anyway but I added vacuuming and help after dinner everyday. Joey thought it was not fair that he has nothing so he said he wanted to swifter the kitchen floor everyday, LOL. I thought that was funny so I said I would give him $5 a week for the floor, LOL

My cousin who is home from Iraq for 2 weeks is ready to have a baby in 3 days. I am so glad he is able to be home to see the little girl arrive, especially his first baby. Him and his wife tried 4 times before this and she lost them in the first trimester so this is a HUGE ordeal in the family and I am so happy for them!

I want to make plans to go see my cousin Tammy ho lives like 6 hrs away, Upstate New York but they get snow so I think it is going to be a Spring visit.

I have 2 candle parties now. Sometime in Feb they both are so I am stoked about that.

I am having a surprise B-day party for my Dad Feb 15th. Funny thing is, his b-day is Jan 15th so he will have no clue and would have forgotten about his b-day a month later. I am excited about this event. He is the big 60. Damn I cannot believe my Daddy is going to be 60 in a few days!

I have pics of my bowels that the Dr took, before and after, I am just having some issues with the scanner so when I get it going I will post it so you can see how bad it was. Bridgete would probably see it better than anyone else since she is a nurse.

Ok that is enough for me for now. Hope u are well and thanks for the link Brit, I was wondering where u went!

Love to you all

"The Unborn"

Ok so this is going to surprise you all but Joe and I went to the movies today to see the movie "The Unborn". It started today so we thought we woud go while the kids were in school and no long lines for opening night =) ( My Dr from my surgery bought us movie tickets because he felt bad for me having such a bad surgery that he thought would be in and out same day). So off we went to the movies at 10:30 this morning. The movie was good but during the movie the whole time it was a queston of why why why. At the end of the movie it was brought to your attention of why and it all made sense. It was pretty descent except for the guy on the stairs, I could not look and when I did see it, I went "OH MY GOD", the people near us was laughing as I was ready to cry, LOL. it was good and when it comes out on DVD I will be there to buy it!!

Here is another shocker for you! Please don't pass out on me ok!

After the m0vie was over, it was alittle after 12:00 and we went to LUNCH!! Oh yes we did!! Not just to a rinky dink place, it was a new Italian Restaurant and Joe said let's try there. So off we went to lunch. I got chicken parm with some pasta that looked like lasgna but it was all cheese, looked like goat cheese but here it was FRESH mozaeralla cheese, Ummmm ewwwww! I ate the chicken though. it was a nice day out wth just us 2 togeher, we tlked during the car drive to the movies and to lunch and back home and did';t argue over anything!

Us 2 young kids had a good day =)

Thanks to Dr. Turner for buying us tickets, we really needede Joe and Theresa time with noone interfering on us!

So if you go to the movies to go see it, let me know what you think, I thought it was pretty good, not great but pretty good!

Some Things About Me

Ok so here goes some things about me you may or may not kn0w but to get to know me better I thought I would do an about me, some history of Theresa.

I was born July 5th 1974.. a few minutes earlier I could have been a fire cracker baby!

I grew with a Father in a wheel chair (shot in Vietnam and paralyzed him from the chest down) so to me having a Dad in a wheel chair was normal.

I was a dancer from 5-9 I think, took tap and ballet. I just liked the sounds of the tap shoes, hehe.

I was a big huge roller skating freak. I could everything u could imagine on skates, if u get me on them now, I'd break my butt bones, lol.

Growing up every weekend we as kids looked forward to the sumer, we went to my Aunt's lake house (a trailer) and went swimming and tubing and had a blast. The adults got drunk, fought and the kids were cooking marshmallows by the fire at night.

I am still friends with my best friend from 3rd grade, Vernae. We were separated for 3 years because we had different middle schools but were reunited the first day of school in 10th grade in Biology class.

I hate the color PINK, I despise it.

My favorite color is black and dark purple.

I get my nails done every 2 weeks, never will you see me with a light color on my nails.

I HATE shoes

I hate shopping except for food shopping, I just hate to put the order away

I spoil my kids to death

I met my husband in 7th grade, thought he was a dork and than dated him later in 7th grade, on and off dated until our senior year it was serious.

I got pregnant my senior year but lost the baby 3 days after I found out I was pregnant and had the miscarriage in work, that was not pretty!

I got married in my in law's back yard in 1994, a year after graduation

Trying to get pregnant was a nightmare, shots, procedures and etc... finally had one in 1996

Same with second pregnancy, shots, meds and all... He was born 1999

Joe and split up for about a month, we got back together (2000) and BAM!!!! I was pregnant with no assistance from the Dr. Jon was born in 2001

My brother died 2003, D.U.I. crashed and after so many damn surgeries on his lungs and chest tubes we let him go 12/12/03 I miss him so much. He was only 21

I can't stand my mother's side of the family. They are all fakes and they piss me off with their born again christian shit.

I hardly talk to anyone on my Dad's side. I speak with 4 cousn's and my Dad's one brother and his wife. My Dad had an argument with his brother and since than, they haven't spoken to each other and it is stupid =( It is so sad.

my Dad's sister just died last year, didn't mean that much to me, the woman was a huge drinker and knew what can happen, besides she was a trouble maker in the family with another woman whom I will not mention. I can't.... she is my... nm

I love chocolate! Chocolate candy, ice ream, u name it, I love it. My fav is choc covered cherries!

I have been dealing with endometriosis since I was 14, had so many surgeries for it, I lost track of them now.

I am a HUGE Daddy's girl. Always will be!

I have an attitude and have a tendency to say things that maybe I should not say or should just keep to myself because it gets me into trouble and people I think I can count i can't. It sucks!

I love horror movies

I am not a reader but James Patterson has some really good books and I am getting ready to read Twlight

I love black licorice

I have 5 tattoo's, 3 of them have meaning behind them, the other 2 I just wanted

I love football. My team is Dallas, even if they did crappy this year!

I play online video game called World Of War Craft, that is my sanity when the kids go to bed

I love my online friends, they lift me up hen I am down and they help me out when I am in need!

My youngest son has Autism so my life is living in the Autism world

I worry about my kids and what they will be when they grow up, I want them to succeed and not be like me, a nothing

My eyes are hazel but if I wear a certain eyeliner they change to a deep green

I have one brother alive now and he lives up where my parents did live, he was heavily into the drugs and now is clean, I am proud of him.

I have 2 cousin's serving in Iraq and it scares the hell outta me everyday they are here and my cousin Chris just left last week.

I hope Obama can change this society, every damn president we have they say that and it makes it worst but noone as bad as Bush!

I suck at typing. I look at the screen 1/2 the time but I am a typo queen and I am sure you can figure out hat the typo is, LOL

My father in law died, it will be 2 year next m0nth and his birthday just passed so that was hard, i miss him alot!

My mother i law is disabled from a surgery she had, they hit er spinal cord and paralyzed her right side, she cannot move her right leg so it drags when she walks, it sucks.

I take medications to calm me down everyday, if not I am a BITCH and a 1/2. I take Seraquil, Remron, Klonopin and generic form of Zyban. Klonopin is twice a day!

My husband suffers from panic disorder. he has to be on medications or he feels like he is dying.

Right now my life sucks

I had surgery almost 3 weeks ago and my left side is still hurting bad and I can only sit a certain way or it kills me

I love to take baths

I love to listen to music when I am cleaning

I am a clean freak. My floors are cleaned everyday, vacuumed everyday, windexing everyday, dusting and bathroom is tidy everyday.

I hate hamburger, exept for in spaghetti

I love to mess with coloring my hair, id id the black thing but I am too plare for that color.

I am a MUT. I have Irish, german, dutch, Indian and some italian in me

I love crunchy cereal, once ir starts to get soggy I wont touch it

I hate milk but in cereal and my coffee.

I LOVE coffee and I drink way too much of it

I have 3 kids that I adore and without them I don't know what I would do

and well I am sure there is more and when I think of it i will have a part 2, lol

I'm Letting My Daughter Grow Up Too Fast!

For Alyssa's LATE Christmas gifts was to get her ear pierced (cartilage..sp?) and a cell phone. Well Joe threw the BIGGEST fit ever when he was told she wanted her cartilage done. She is too young for that Theresa.. WTF.. Why would u let her even get that done. So instead, she got her 2nd holes done. To me, what the hell is the difference, all the kids her age have it done and I took her BFF to get her ear pierced done and she (Stephanie) got the cartilage done, was allowed by her Mother I made sure. Maybe it is just me but I see no big deal in it. Bad mother or just bad thoughts? Today's society is different than when we were kids and he compared this to him. He said he was not allowed to get his ear pierced til he was 18. I said first of all, your parents were old school like the rest of us and your a boy, LMAO. There is no comparison here. So anyway, she got her 2nd holes done with her birthstone (Sept). It looks cute cause she has medium size hoops in the first holes and little birthstones in the 2nd ones.

The cell phone. Why does she need a cell phone? Umm because she goes out and there is no excuse now that she had no way to get a hold of us because all the cell phones were dead or any other excuse she can come up with. It's $40 a month with unlimited text and unlimited minutes. I don't think that is bad.

I am allowing our 12 year old to grow up too fast and allowing her to be 16 and not 12. I am sorry, all the kids have phones and all the kids have piercings on their cartilage. Ok, so we are not everyone but I SPOIL my kids to the extreme and that is bad... Ok I know it is.

I suck! Alyssa wanted me to get my cartilage done and I said hell no......that shit hurts, LMAO. Now Stephanie didn't even flinch when she got hers done and said it didn't hurt at all. Hmmm. If anything... IF I had a nice body with a flat belly with no stretch marks and scars I would get a belly ring but that is way outta here now, LOL

I felt bad that Stephanie was allowed to get it done but Alyssa couldn't but she is happy with the 2nd holes and it looks nice! Maybe I am letting her grow up too fast.

Come To Think Of It

I am thinking this year will be better than "08" was. My parents get their inlaw suite built on my other side of the house, my bathroom is DFINALLY going to get done and my carpets will be put in and than onto the kitchen. Joe gets his CDL soon, he is almost done with that so he will be working which will make things better for all of us. I have my Mother in law on one sode of the house with her inlaw suite and my parents on the other side of the house. I am happy about that, I hated the long s drive to the pocono's to visit my parents. I actually hate the pocono's so it is better they are here. I am also glad they are here with me because of Dad getting older with his disability he falls alot and there is always someone here to help him up again. The thought of him being 2 and 1/2 hours away and falling always scared me so they are here with us which is good!

So yea, there is alot going on for 2009. I am going to TRY and make things better for us with my mood swings which I am hoping will be better since I had the surgery and I won't be in pain 24/7 and can actually have good intimate times now =) That was alot of perssure on our relationship ya know.

2009, here we come!

Here's To A New Year!

Well here we are at 2009, same shit just a different number at the end. Did e expect anything different really? Na, not really. I didn't have a new Year's Resolution only because everytime I do have on, it don't pan put anyway, LOL. I didn't do anything New Year's. Joe watch Twlight Zone all night and fell alseep early and I played my online game until 2:0o am which is usually not me. I didn't even watch the ball drop in New York. I think these Holiday's are just so bla no, I guess I am older I am a parrty pooper anymore. Even Christmas to me didn't feel like Christmas, it hasn't for the past few years but I like to watch the kids open their gifts and every year I h ope Jony understands what is going on but he still don't don't get it. I had to open his gifts yet again and he don't want nothing to do with any of them =( It's so sad.

I think I am getting together with my cousin today, was supposed to be yesterday but I ound up in Walmart spending money on my kids... they needed clothes and taking Jonny to McDonald's for lunch. He was such a good boy. now on Sat I am taking him to get his haircut, that is NOT going to be fun, he hates it and cries and it breaks my heart but I can' have him having hair in his eyes and long hair, people think he is a girl, LOL.

I am also getting Aysa her late Christmas gifts today I think too. I am getting her a phone from Metro PCS. It is really cheap. It is $40 a month unlimited text and unlimited talk which is what I need for her! I didn't have the money before Christmas so Christmas morning It old her I was getting it right after Christmas. She needs it now, she goes out and I need to know where she is and etc... Than she won't have an excuse of why she didn't check in and it is the perfect thing to take away when she gets grounded!!! My daughter is 12 going on 20 I swear. Things these kids do I didn't fo until I was like 14 or the clothes they wear and things they want, it drives me nuts. Id id good this year once again for Christmas though and got everthing on sale, even her clothes and her jacket she wanted. I got her jacket for $40 when it is an $80 jacket, her boots were buy one pair for $20 get the 2nd pair for $10. Her shirts from Aeropostal were on sale for $10.00 and so was her Hollister shirts, well they were $25 but byuy one get one free so I got 4 shirt for $50.00 YAY. Her jeans I found in a kids store for $25 (skinny jeans) instead of the $50, which Joe wanted to kill me when I bought them for $50, LOL

So Happy New Year's to you all. I know I didn't get on Myspace and commnt anyone but I did sent out a bulletin, LOL.

I hope you all have a good New Year and I hope it is better than last year.

Bridgete, I am so proud of you that you lost all that weight, you were determined and you did it! You look Great! I have alot of clothes for you for Parker but surgery messed me up so when I am feeling better I will send it out to you.

Tammy, hang in there kiddo, you are strong and you will be ok. Time will fly by so fast and before you kowit, Chris will be home with you and the babies!!

Leslie,I haven't had time to send out anything yet, I still feel like crappo but when I feel better i will get it out to you.

Alittle of this and that

This last pic is a stratch I did from the pain medications I was allergic to. Not only did it make me throw up but it made me itch like crazy.

Hey everyone!n I don't even know where to start on here since it has been awhile since I wrote in here. I guess I will start with surgery. My surgery was the 17th. It was supposed to be an in and out procedure of a laporoscopy. No biggie to me since I had it done so damn times. It turned out to be a mess really. My Dr had to call in the General Surgeon because the adhesion's and scar tissue was so bad on my bowels he couldn't by law of his license touch it. It was so bad that it could not even be lazered off, it had to be cut out. Than they thought I had a hernia by my vaginal wall which turned out to be a huge mass of adhesion's and scar tissue thank god. The pain was intense when I woke up. I was on Dilotin for pain and was allergic to that so I was dry heaving and all with compazine shots in the ass to stop the vomiting for 3 days. By the 4th day I was on no pain meds cause I was afraid to throw up, 4 incisions on the belly and throwing up is not a good feeling at all. It hurt pretty bad. The pain from this surgery hurt worst than the hysterectomy surgery I had 7 years ago. I finally got home on the 20th at like 7:00 at night. I was glad to be home but damn the pains were so intense. Here I am 10 days later and my left side still hurts pretty bad but bare able. My tolerance to pain is pretty high since I been dealing with the Endometriosis since I was 14, have no choice but to deal with pains. I have 4 incisions from hip to hip from 3 c-sections and the hysterectomy and here the damn Dr, cut me from belly button down to the hair line. I was so mad when I seen that I cried like a baby. My belly is ugly enough with all the scars and stretch marks,he just made it 20 times worst.

Christmas was good. I was still in pain but it was all for the kids, always is anyway. Joe cooked a ham and turkey with a bunch of sides, my brother was here with his fiance, my brother in law and his wife and 2 kids and my family so I had a full house. It was nice though that I did no cooking or cleaning up, LOL. It was good but my appetite at that time was limited so all i had was turkey and stuffing. I was too afraid to eat and get sick again, LOL. My worst fear is throwing up so I will in any case avoid to throw up. Alyssa and Joey were super happy with what they got for Christmas and Jonny had no clue as to what was going on like every year and kept going to the tree looking at it saying "tree" "tree" like wondering why there is a damn tree in the house. It was a nice day but very long for me!

Today my cousin's husband left for Iraq, I feel bad for her. It sucks. They have 2 kids and one of them is just a new born. So now I feel bad for my cousin having to take care of 2 babies and the house and all on her own as I feel bad for all the women who's husband's have to leave over sea's. It sucks. I hope Obama makes the changes he promised!!

The weight I was so excited about that I put on (14 lbs) I lost already. I went over to see Nae and I was down to 104. Sickening. I look sick! When i was 114 I looked good, the boobs were nice and the ass was there, LOL. I have nothing now. I am trying so hard to get my appetite back but it is hard after surgery to get it back fast! Nothing tastes good and everything just tastes different.

The pics are from what I looked like a week later so you can imagine what I looked like after my surgery. It is sooo ugly! My stretch marks were never this bad but I guess since he pumped me up with the air he made the stretch marks deeper.... I just wanna cry!

There is alot of personal stuff going on, I will write about that later. It is time for me to lay down, my left side is killing me!

I've Been Busy

The past few days have been extremely busy with always something to do or going on. Wednesday Jonny had an appt at the new Dr's office (the child Phycho Dr). Well we went to go school to pick him up and when we get to the office, we had a little surprise that his appt was cancelled but no one called me to inform me of this. I was quite ticked off. His apt now is Monday at 11:00 and the evaluation is 2 hours long. I hope she does something to help Jonny sleep better at nights, this is nuts! Joe get up with him around 3:00 am until like 7-7:30 than wakes me up to be with him and Joe goes back to sleep for awhile, it is just insane!

Thursday I had to go to the hospital for the pre-admission blood work and all the questions of this and that. They took 5 viles of blood and after that I had to get an EKG because I am a smoker. That in itself was 2 and 1/2 hours long.

Friday I get a call saying I need to come back to the hospital to get the blood work taken all over again because there was blood clots in the tubes. WTF!!!! She said this was no one's fault and it happens frequently... Hmm I doubt that and I blame the nurse for this one. She didn't spin it right or something.

Friday night was my candle party. We had a blast. We went through all the candles that were made which was 38 different ones and than the ones in the bottles which was like 50, LOL. I am so immuned to these scents so Ismell them differently I think, LOL. It was a success considering there was only 8 girls there but we had a blast with the wine, LOL., I got home at 2:30 a.m. still feeling that buzz feeling, LOL

Saturday Jonny's therapist came for 2 hours and talked to me about moving Jonny out of the school district possibly if they cannot come up with something to help this child and how they can control him. This is their job, they went to college on this so they of all people should know how to control an autistic child. It pisses me off!!!

Today is Sunday and I am hoping to get to the stores and get some more Christmas gifts for the kids and some outside lights. I have like 6 bushes I want lights in so I must do this but I am not sure if Joe has band so it all depends on that. I cannot take Jonny to the store when it it Christmas time, he is deathly afraid of the Christmas animations and thins so him going with me in nearly impossible. Maybe I can take him and bribe with him with McDonald's Chicken nuggets and fries, LOL

I snowed last night, flurries were just slowly coming down. It looks so pretty but I hate the shit! It makes it feel like Christmas but i still hate it, LOL. I hate the cold weather too, it hurts the bones in my legs.

Ok.. I think that is it for now. I might be back later and read more blogs, I still need to wake up here a bt, LOL

XOXO